There is infact no answer to this question. I don't know if I love or if I hate.
There are so many things happening in my country, I cry quite often thinking of the state of affairs.
If I don't love then why should I bother about all these?
If I really hate then why don't I go away from this land?
Its not about love or hatred but its much more than that which binds me to it.
What can I do apart from eating, sleeping, some exercise, watching movies, doing my regular office job, having drinks and fun in the weekends, paying my house loans and other loans, calling my family weekly to find out their whereabouts any any new brides up for sale etc.....
I am doing nothing apart from what I mentioned above, all those are for me, for my safety, for my happiness, for my selfishness and for my future needs and luxuries, for my carnal pleasures and much more.
There is "my" in front of everything that I do and think but do I feel sad doing all these? thinking about all my selfish needs?
A straight "NO", because I like doing all these, I love thinking about me, about my family/friends, talking to them, planning for my future. There is nothing wrong in what I do and what I think.
In an ideal world this is absolutely true, where everyone is capable of dealing with their own problems and no one intends to hurt the other person, everyone has enough resources and beyond everything everyone is content.
Since we can never live in an ideal world, all my "my"s don't have a real sense in this world.
So now my question is should I feel sad because the world and the situations are not ideal or that I am thinking only about me and not others.
I am feeling sad, because I am not able to do anything to save the world, I have the will and the power to do but how much can I achieve all alone?
I should join hands with someone who has similar thoughts and then proceed.
There are lot of groups, leaders whose ideologies are much more deeper and which have far reaching affects for the betterment of the world like our great Jayaprakash Narayan, Lok satha party president.
So my next step is I should join those people and proceed towards the betterment of the people and the world.
So what about my family, kids, wife, cousins, friends, uncles, aunts, brothers, sisters etc. etc.
Isn't it my responsibility to help them, make them self sufficient?
How long does it take for me to do these?
Is helping my frnds, relatives etc my own responsibility or is it a collective ?
I think its mine, so it takes years and years for me to help them and save them?
What about me then? Don't I have to take some rest? Shouldn't I have a little bit of luxury,pleasure etc, so I can feel happy?
where is the time for all this? Who comes first?
my parents, siblings, frnds, relatives or the nation?
I really don't know....
Its also that because I am self sufficient that I have time to think of others.
What bout those millions of people around the world who don't have food to eat and shelter to live?
they can only think of food,water and safety as they don't have.
So my next question is should I go the part of world where the poorest of the poor resides and start helping them?
Of course I can't as I am self sufficient but not rich, so my next step would be do what ever I can in my role, in my neighborhood, in my area and then go beyond.
Its all about suviving, live and let others live.
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