A Library

A Library is one place where every one in their lifetime would have visited atleast once.
I know its not a temple but its more than that for students.
Its true that some of the habits you acquire in your life are hereditary; Going to library is one such for me; Thanks to my Dad who introduced me to libraries as early as in my 3rd-4th standard (early 90s).
From then onwards I treat them as a treasure buildings and any town I go I look for a local library; I would visit as often as possible till I satisfy my thirst for book reading (which ofcourse was/is never satisfied)
Its something not unique and this passion for reading and innumerable strolls to libraries is common among book readers around the world.
Each library is a treasure with wealth of knowledge accumulating year on year;
I have had so many library cards with me (one from Hyderabad State library, British Library Hyd, British Library Chennai, Melbourne city Library, Melbourne Victorian State Library); I keep counting as I know I would add more;
As a responsible citizen its also a moral duty on library goers to contribute to the libraries. Governments only do enough for citizens and its our duty to do more;
Though I have made limited contributions to library (I though offer books to children, colleagues and friends for free), I urge everyone to donate and contribute to our libraries.
Its not an expense; you read a book or a cd or dvd and once you had enough of that you can happily donate it either to a library or a friend; Though donating to a library offer great benefits as it serves hundreds or thousands of people.
Libraries in India are good but they are not better compared to the services provided in Australia. I think Europe and USA are far superior; since I never visited those places I don't know much about them.
Libraries in India need new infrastructure; they need more and more digital content; They should implement search catalogs etc; I guess some of these features might've already been implemented in big state libraries and libraries in universities and the same should happen across our small towns and villages;
Easy and free access to books is a boon to poor students who can't buy books;
The thought of contributing to libraries is already in my "What to do in a lifetime" list so I would definitely start sometime soon.
I still cherish my days when I used to prepare for IIT JEE Examination; After I return from college (8 PM), I go to a near by library and start preparing material for Chemistry Paper (till 10:30 PM and sometimes I used to doze off)
Great minds are born in Libraries; I often see people studying in my college library till late nights; I think its a pleasure of its own kind being among thousands and thousands of books and reading till the library is closed.
A library offers you a chance to live a life in books; it makes you forget everything in your life but books; Huge collection of old magazines, a century old news papers, articles; great novels, arts, music, scientific research materials and more.
There is a place for everykind of person in a library who wants to read and learn new things.
I can write more and more on libraries but its only less compared to the huge wealth and knowledge they offer to the human mankind.

Visit a library today and enjoy its benefits.

How to stop that urge

This is a very difficult question and a complex thing to do.
How do you stop that urge??
I have had tough times in my life trying to achieve this but nay couldn't quite got there.
How do you really stop?
I want to go to some 'x' movie but at the same time I have a class to attend.
Will you skip your class for the movie? Often people do things on instincts;
But it really hurts you deeply inside if you don't want to do something you are forced to do.
For eg: your mom/dad asked you to go to a store and get onions while you are watching a WWE match between Rock and Steve Austin!!!
Obviously it hits you hard; you can feel it in your stomach;
What is it that hits you? Ofcourse its our ego; but how do you stop it?
I really want to find out what is it that kicks our brain and makes us stubborn?

another eg:
I want to play football today and I am determined to do; The plumber told me that he would be at exactly the same time;
Its difficult to get that plumber's appointment and there are no one available as its a holiday;
What do you do? you would be dejected and obviously misses your match cursing the plumber.
How to calm our ego during instances like the above? I never really got an answer;
For people who show their anger right on the face its easy; they shout at their friends or parents or whoever stops them from doing or whoever are near by during those times and after a few minutes or hours they would be normal;
But what about those who don't show their anger or dejection at that instant like me?
It kills you inside;

Why do humans have Ego? what is this feeling?
What if we don't have Ego; it means you would never really feel bad or good; Is it possible?
I don't think so;
Having no ego means having no identity; you won't be identified by a specific characteristic or a behaviour; its indeed difficult to live without having an identity and hence we all have ego.

What we all try to do is how to satisfy our ego ; means how to not hurt our ego?
What if we are cool and calm and take anything we get without complaining or fighting for more;
That is indeed difficult; For innovators, trailblazers and researchers, they obviously should question the inevitable and that's how they reach greater heights and find new things;
So Ego is good in some instances and bad in some other.

Satisfying your ego sometimes can hurt others while not doing what you wanted to do hurt you more; A balance is needed and that's what makes a person divine.
I believe that a person who balances his ego is close to god.

A different thought on the same subject: Its good if we can get an alert as soon as our ego is hurt and then our body cools it automatically; then you won't feel bad and you won't let others down; I really want scientists to probe and find a good device which cools our ego and anger automatically;
So there won't be any heart patients in the near future and no wars on the earth.

Happy Egoing!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The art of writing and me

This post is for all my fans (assuming they do exist).
Surprisingly I haven't written a single post during my holidays; Somehow I am keeping myself busy and never felt like writing.
Tomorrow will be the last of our christmas holidays and I now feel that I should atleast write one.

I usually write about everything and anything which can be shared to public.
Yes I have my own personal blog to keep all my little secrets.
I still don't know from where did I actually imbibed the art of writing.
I know that I started copying my brother when I was in 2nd or 3rd standard; that's way back in 92-94 (19 years ago).
The stories I used to write were so funny and meaningless. How could a child who didn't even cross his 10th year write stories???
I should put this question to my brother; I don't know from where he got the inspiration to write; Because of my nature of being jealous I was envious of my brother's writings and hence started writing.
I don't think my brother writes now but I am.
I write about love, lust, pleasures, women, food, health, technology, relationships, social problems, national problems and almost about everything out there.

I don't get inspiration from anyone while writing; I write only when my instincts tell me to do. That usually happens when I am drunk. It also happens when I get emotional or when I am in ecstacy.

One great source of inspiration behind my writing is the english language.
A language which I started learning when I was just 4 yrs old.
I was lucky to start my education in "st. lukes convent, Guntur" at the age of 5 (Sarada convent was my first school). 
We were all taught to speak in english at the age of 5. Amazing it is and that's where the foundation started.
After that a series of wonderful english teachers and lecturers made my love for english language grow more.

Samatha Miss (4th-5th class, Ideal public school, Vijayawada), I also remember she taught us social studies.
Vinod sir from Kerala - he taught some lessons in English (4th,5th class, ideal public school, vijayawada)

Seetharamaiah sir - an ex freedom fighter who taught us all the grammar in our school (7th class, kennedy convent, guntur)
Martin sir in my school (8th class, kennedy convent, guntur) - though I don't give him credit of being a good teacher, I like his style quotient. He is the one who introduced me to "The great expectations" by Charles dickens. He says I am close to the character of "pip" in the novel.

Rita miss - our english teacher in 10th class,kennedy convent, guntur - She was very good and an ideal teacher of english language. God bless her.
She taught us "the hound of baskervilles" by Wilkie Collins.

Babu rao sir in my Intermediate (wisdom college, guntur), he is the master story teller.
Qureshi sir in my intermediate (wisdom college, guntur), he got a deep impression on me and other students by his style and command on english language.

Martha teacher during our engg.

I think I have moved away from my main subject of this post but yes its all because of english that I started writing.

The last time I saw Paris - Movie Review

This movie is a Elizabeth Taylor's classic; directed by Richard Brooks and written by Epstein.
The hero's character is played by Van Johnson. He acted really well but haven't succeeded in surpassing Taylor.
Taylor is simply superb; She is one of the most versatile actresses in the world cinema.
Her grace, her beauty, her flow of emotions on screen, her love and her everything on screen is great.
This movie depicts the problems arising between a husband and wife and how their life journey continues.
Charles comes back to Paris after the 2nd world war; He meets Helen, he infacts likes Helen's sister, Marion first but eventually falls for Helen when he sees her.
Charles and Helen gets married; Helen enjoys her life with friends and parties and never really succeeds in helping Charles or comforting him with his failures.
Charles joins a news company; He tries to write novels, all his novels are returned back with a note saying that they aren't worthy of publishing.
Disappointment and frustration grows in charles and Helen's indifference adds to his troubles.
He finds solace in their child. Differences grow between them slowly.
Meanwhile one day Helen's family finds that the land gifted by her father to Charles has Oil mines which makes them rich overnight.
Differences grow further and helen starts going out with a handsome tennis player whom her father introduces. Charles goes out with an actress whom he interviews for his news agency.
They both try to escape from each other and one day when Helen goes to their house to meet Charles, he refuses to open the door which forces helen to walk alone in the cold climate to her sister's house and falls sick.
Charles meets Helen the next day and they both express love and affection towards each other and helen finally dies in the hospital.
In the final act, Marion raises Helen's daughter, proving the court that Charles is an aloholic and unfit to raise his child.
Charles comes back to reclaim his child and finally wins over Marion after Marion's husband convinces her.
There have been hundreds of movies made later in Hindi and other regional languages in India based on this story but none matches Taylor's performance and Van Johnson's performance as well.

Taylor is a beauty queen and her grace is unmatched; Its highly unlikely that there's another woman who is so beautiful with loads of acting talent. The movie never has a boring scene and I infact cried for the last 30 mins of the movie. its so beautifully portrayed the love between a father and his child; Husband's remorse at losing his wife; Husband's calming attitude towards a very lively wife and a studious child.
this is a must watch for all those who will be tying the knot or who will be stepping into a relationship soon.

I think this is what happens when people fall in love at first sight; The eventual pull between opposite sexes as per the law of attraction rules and brings them to marriage.
After marriage, the troubles start as the couple fails to understand each other before marriage because of the law of attraction.
Its so difficult to maintain a marriage or a relationship. You have troubles, problems, misunderstandings coming in your way every now and then and you just have to move on and never break the relationship.
It all looks so easy but to be in a relationship and to sustain it is a challenge and its been becoming very difficult in the society due to the growing human's individualities and various lifestyles.

pain and suffering of being alone

I like writing when I am drunk.
The reason being thyeat I come to my natural terms only when I am drunk;
no fear, no embarrassment;
I am drunk today and in my fav PJ Oberai Pub.
As usual the saturday band played the routine songs but this time there were some surprise inclusions and I liked them.
I thought my day would end in gloom but luckily I went to pub and I just love the music and alcohol.
yes, there's nothing worse than being alone; or the feeling of lonelyness;
I know that its a punishment for me to suffer alone for sometime due to all my bad behaviour in the past.
I now understand and realize that's it cruelty on my part to criticize people so much and comment on them.
coz I am part of the "karma" bhumi now I am suffering what is eventually in store for me.
Being away from your loved ones; being alone; the feeling of loneliness;
Though alcohol alleviates your pain for sometime, its only temporary; you would eventually feel your lonelyness the next morning when you come to your senses;
Life is nothing without family, friends, relatives, roommates, neighbours, colleagues.
Its a curse to be alone and to feel the loneliness;
There's nothing much in our hands and its all with God; He shows you the way and he lets you suffer for your guilt so that you can realize and never repeat the same.
I realize now but I have to suffer my consequences for another month;
I know life would be sweet after a month; but who knows whats in store;
you would never know until you come to that point; I hope I don't do any further mistakes and I will be obedient to god's rules and just be happy;

Beauty is EVIL

A thing of beauty is a joy for ever.
Some one told this and that's true.
But I feel Beauty is the cause of all troubles.
Every man raves about women's beauty. 
Beauty leads to desires and that's the primary cause behind most of the failed relationships.
I am right now experiencing the affect of beauty. I didn't realize this till today that Beauty is the Evil.


We go along the road, we see a beautiful girl and we forget ourselves; forget for those couple of seconds why we are walking on the street and where we are going .


Suppose all the girls are the same and we, men don't have the power to identify beautiful women. That means we look at all the girls as the same.
Beautiful women is a distraction; I really don't know how to overcome this.
I go to an interview and the one of the interviewers is a beautiful blonde;
I am running to a hospital to see how my friend is recovering after a sever accident and the nurse there is a beauty.
I go to temple for peace and to pray but those young teenage beauties and middle aged beautiful women coming to the temple are a distraction.
I try to listen carefully to my professors' lectures but those black hair, long legged girls in the front bench would make my life difficult in the classroom.


I talk to receptionists, I call customer care agents, I go to travel desks. Everywhere there are beautiful women and you would of course be not concentrating on what you are supposed to speak and do.


But what is this phenomena?  What's the purpose behind beauty other than destroying the relationships and the world?
why is there something called beauty? Did science really answer this?
I wish we find everyone beautiful or everyone the same, no soft feelings, no deviations, no discrimination and no desires.


Lets pray for an "Everyone is beautiful" world or a "no one is beautiful" world.

Human Beings' version 2.0

If you observe how man/womankind has been evolving (based on history) we can easily see the upgraded version of human beings released generation after generation.
As per Darwin and many other evolution theories, the first version was monkey and then slowly humans evolved.
What I want to find is about the human mind?  Was human mind the same or is it changed now or evolved into something new?
I want to know about the emotions/knowledge of humans then?


Did the generations thousands of years go feel "jealousy", "anger", "pleasure", "love", "pain", "ecstasy" and all other emotions?
If they were too feeling the same then what's the difference between those people and us?
Looks like we are still in the release 1.0.
God is yet to upgrade human beings' release to 2.0 or is he already applying patches (1.1,1.2....) instead of releasing a new version?


The current version is out of date and is corrupt.
Man now wants pleasures, wealth, power and lust.  
Man is created not to enjoy the pleasures, wealth and power but to live with others peacefully and happily (my version).
I feel there is an urgency for version 2.0 as 1.0 is so corrupted that it won't accept an up gradation.


Lets say God has allowed us all to vote for our new version.
Here is my take on the new version of human beings:
1) 2.0 should be of the same color and same sex
2) They shouldn't be capable of perceiving the following emotions:
   Greed, jealousy, lust (for power and wealth)
3) They should be of the same height and same weight during their respective ages
(0-5 yrs:5 kilos, 5-10 yrs:20 kilos, etc etc)
4) They should be able to talk to Gods directly
5) They should be able to perceive others' feelings directly
6) They should be of equal wealth and property allotted as per Gods' rules
7) They all have their goals predefined ( they should be knowing)  and they reach their goals/targets one by one and the final destination is death which will be again decided by gods based on their efficiency.


While I am writing this, I got a feeling somewhere that I am missing the basic meaning of humanity. The features I mentioned suit well for a Robot but not for a human being.
If there is no bad then there is no good; If there are no differences and no inequalities then there is no meaning in living this life. Its all a waste of time and energy.


I wish humans be the same in 2.0 as we are now but with an added touch of generosity and goodness embedded in each soul.


so my take on 2.0 is that they should be similar to us but with more refined good features and that's all.