My own personal attack on me

I wanted to write what's not right with me physically and mentally.
So here it is my own personal attack on me.


I am of average height, 5' 8.5'', fair to very fair if I have to say among indians but among europeans/aussies I am brown.
My nose is little broad not pointed; my hairline is decreasing day by day, means losing thousands of my hair, I am not officially bald now but can join the community if this continues for a year.
I wear goggles or lens; the power of the lens fluctuating between 3 and 4, after a long 16 years it's managed to touch 4.
I am arrogant with tons of ego; anger is my first emotion; not a great communicator when it comes to opp sex; frankly I should say I am shy when speaking to girls.
I have no big memory and understanding skills, I have to read 10 times each topic to remember it properly; that's why I always used to read during my college/school days.
People call me very hard working! Uh! they don't know its because I couldn't remember/understand easily.
I am weak towards girls, can't make friendship with them, can't talk to them properly. Can't have a valid discussion without looking into their eyes sharply and thinking if she is beautiful.
I admire people who are beautiful, so here I am a racist.
I don't listen to others' suggestions or advice, I do what I want to do.
I think I am a good dancer but people find it funny.
I am no good singer;
I always see people's negatives, tend to criticize quite often at everything and everyone.
criticism is my born right!!
I have few friends, I always think I am the greatest of all.
Though I boast of being a dietitian, being health conscious , I ignore my own principles every weekend and eat/drink like a pig.
I can't swim fast, can't run fast,  can't cycle fast; 
I don't know how to play songs on Guitar properly.  
I always tell others how great I was and I am. Always discusses others' -ves infront of others. I can't bear sunlight.


Vow, it seems there are too many -V'es that I can tell about myself, i'll keep adding to the list as and when I get a new one.
Since I know all the above are my weakeness, I tend to overcome them.
I use a lot of techniques to change my behavior and consciously introspect.
That's why my life is in balance; 
If I read this post again I would defintely feel bad about myself but I am going to write another post about how great I am to counter this post!!!!

Eat like a pig counter

Yeah I know, one more counter in my life.
This is for me and to have a check on how much I eat.
Yes I am on a strict diet, eating only necessary for my living and for weight lifting.
But this discipline is only on weekdays when I don't drink, but on weekends? I will become a pig, eat like a pig, my stomach won't stay "stop", my hunger cells stop working, there is only one word "go".
So on weekends when I sit with friends/roommates and drink, I just lose count on how much calories/protein/carbs/fat/fibre I take. They just don't matter.
All my efforts on weekdays just go waste because of me becoming a pig on weekends.


Too bad my fellow and hence is the necessity of starting this counter.


Counter value 1:
date, venue: may 6th 2011, unilodge, melbourne, australia
had salted peanuts, potato chips along with 3-4 pegs scotch and then on top it, rice with curry.


Counter value 2:
June 3rd, 2011, melbourne, australia
venue: Jaisalmer palace
though we ordered limited items I was overanxious to eat Akbar biryani, hence odered so.
The biryani was too high with lots of chicken pieces and all too tasty, before that I had a couple of beers in the office, then I had one more drink in the hotel. As starters I ate pakoda then jumped to Biryani. 
It was too heavy but since I don't want to get my name added in my "food wastage counter" I had to clear the plate, I did so with difficulty and finally won. That was kind of "man vs food" program in Travel&living channel.

Bazaar movie review.

Just saw this movie, Bazaar released in 1982 starring naseeruddin shah, smita patel,  farooq shaikh and supriya pathak.
This is written and directed by Sagar Sarhadi who wrote dialogues for kabhi kabhi, silsila etc.


This movie is all about how poor muslim women get married in Hyderabad.
It shows how old people buy these muslim girls in the name of marriage.
Khayyam's beautiful music adds to the pain, tragedy. There are a couple of romantic tracks as well in this movie.


Overall watching such a movie for 2 hrs needs patience, since I am a smita patil's fan, I have completed watching this movie full.
There is n't much to smita's performance in this movie other than the usual rona dhona.
But she is looking splendid, with kajal, black hair and the traditional hyderabadi chudidars.
Vow she is a beauty.
The movie has some gazals from Mir, though I don't understand much urdu but I like these.


I also like the romantic part between farooq shaikh and supriya pathak. it is very beautifully portrayed, how farooq tries to talk to supriya, how he rides the rickshaw, how he acts as a bangle seller. vow I like it, and later when he gets to know about her marriage he says he would die for her.
One dialogue is so heart touching.
he says, "there wasn't anything in my life before you came", "you made my life"
listen to this line in urdu when Farooq says, "kya tha zindagi mein tere pehle",
The agony a lover feels for his love is shown here; the tragic part is supriya dies immediately after the marriage, we don't know what happens to Farooq though.


Overall you can give 6/10 for this, its a must watch to all Smita Fans but not for naseeruddin's fans.

herbal spa

Not one of those interesting topics to write a blog on but thought I would capture my experience so it would be fun when I read this again and again after some time.


Went to Day Spa in my Gym(melbourne city baths), 59 bucks per hour.


the lady, mariame showed me a bath tub with warm water in which some herbs, lavender, rosemary, sea salt were soaked and I was asked to soak myself in the tub for 30 mins.


I was thinking how to pass 30 mins all alone in a bath tub. after much difficulty i was able to finish my 30 mins, looking here and there, filling the tub in intervals.
But when I started to get up I felt so dizzy and I was unable to move my hands, legs etc.
Its all seemed so empty, I got out and told her how I felt, she said yes this was not a normal hot water bath but herbal bath; it will cleanse the system, purifies and releases all the toxins from the body.
I was given water, drank two glasses slowly and I could feel I was coming to normal slowly.
At the same time, another middle aged woman came for the spa and my masseurs was explaining the history about the baths and the place, it did have an effect on me as she was telling the century old building and the bath techniques they used in those times.
I went to the toilet and was almost normal but yes with a little bit tiredness.
Then I was asked to sit in a different chair with back facing outside, she says she designed it specifically for massage, she did the massage on my back, shoulders and I felt good.
and then on another chair, she massaged lightly my arms with rosemary cream.
I almost came to normal due to all this and could feel the affect of the herbs.
then paid her, thanked her for the service and walked my way back to Unilodge.
Yes its worth the money I paid, but the dizzy effect could be due to my heavy drinking y'day night. I know that, and yes I have to make sure that I reduce the no. of pegs I take on weekends.
After coming home, the food was ready(y'days chicken and rice), warmed it a bit, ate it and slept nicely for 3 hours.
It was awesome, a bit of experiment and experience and I would remember this for some time.

Being human

Sometimes it often makes you feel that you are the most important person in this world and making you happy is the only thing God always thinks about.
Its true and I believe in every aspect of this.


I feel happy now, yes its all a perception, the way you feel in you brain/mind/heart or whatever you call it which feels your perceptions.
I am happy because I had 3.5 pegs of Red label scotch; I am happy because we all had fun( 7 friends), drinking and then eating with limited curry and rice;
I am happy because there is now unanimity among all of us which started lately;
A month earlier everyone used to go by their own ways, one goes to gym every evening, the other one works in the office late night, another lives in his own world, another loves and lives on Facebook and the other does things based on no formula.
I am happy because we are humans and god gave me the opportunity to mingle among humans, talk to one another, extend our horizons, live together despite pains/struggles and most of all live together


There is nothing equal to living together; living life alone and living with others are like two poles on the earth.


I just had a talk to my dearest friend; for keeping the name anonymous lets call it as "Y".
Y felt so happy as I talked to Y after a long time, Y is recently married and I was giving Y suggestions how to understand Y's spouse and lead a happy life; its true Y became a part of my life; there's an emotional attachment between Y and me; My initial introspections about Y were not pleasant as I was more narrow in my thoughts, things started changing slowly and as I started gaining more deeper understanding about human's feelings and the longings for emotional attachments I come to know about the bonds and the attachment between two souls. Y felt very happy now when I talked to Y after a long time; Y felt refreshed.


An attachment between two souls is very strong; its difficult to cut the chord; I realized it lately; My attachment with Y is one such kind; I am now in another continent far away from  my friend Y but still I miss Y, I just couldn't wait to talk to Y; 
I still get dreams about Y's success, Y's day to day livings, Y's behaviour, Y's past.
Same is true in the case of my parents about whom I think a lot, most of the people on earth does so, there's nothing strange about it;


so what do you call about relationships between two souls?  Also do you really think about Y every second/minute or occassionally? You can't tell so as there is no meaning or pattern to describe such feelings/relationships.
These things just happen and it makes you feel happy/content, what else you want in life other than feeling content? 


To the great lord living all above us!!!!!
I bow to you my lord for letting me live on this earth, feeling all kinds of emotions; fear, sorrow, happiness, delight, jealousy, satisfaction, anger, thirst, hunger and of all great emotions is what I or many people call as LOVE


I fell in love with humans long ago, but only on few occasions I realize its true and when I feel it I become overjoyed, would thank god and everybody.
I love humans, I am proud to be a human being, proud to have a heart and proud to love another person.


You just cannot describe the feeling called "LOVE", it varies; you would love your friends, love girls, love white girls, desi girls, love what you do daily, love the work you do, love the way things are different in developed countries, love asians, love everything;
Then what do you hate on this earth? I don't hate anything, I learnt from somewhere or someone and I still believe in it that there is nothing on this earth which can be hated or which can't be loved? There is just nothing? 
Everything is lovable and everyone loves something or the other?
Even a cruel human being, terrorist or some on other who kills people loves his son/daughter or his wife.
Love is universal, love is not unique, love is natural, no one can ever reproduce the feeling called Love. If that is possible then understand that the evolution has ended;

Fiber

Its true, people started calling me Fiber Man:
Yes, it feels good when I make people remind about something so important in every daily life.
The word is FIBER.
Its essential for everybody's digestion, you can't defecate if you don't get enough fiber in your body; Your bowels won't work properly unless your daily intake consists of sufficient fiber.
Its no surprise that I have Fiber chart in my room, I don't read it daily but after excessive googling and discussions I almost got the numbers in my head.
I can now make out the fiber content in each food item I eat and hence trying to maintain a well balanced digestive system.
Everyone should take care of their digestive system as obviously unless food gets digested you won't get what you need to live.


..to be continued

Food Wastage Counter

Ok, here it is finally!!
After following and telling everybody to be conscious on how much food you are wasting I finally decided to make it counted atleast in my life.


I am announcing the official launch of Food Wastage Counter today; i.e. 17th April 2011.
And I already have a count of ! 
Current counter value: 1 (y'day I bought veg kabab near china town, melbourne in a hurry as I was rushing to watch "Teen Maar" movie of pawan kalyan's; I just had a single bite of the kabab and that's it I had to leave it, it's an error in judgement but that's fine I would definitely take care next time not to buy something new when you are in a hurry)


Counter value: 2
day before y'day, i.e. 22nd April,'11 on Good Friday, we went to Vietnamese restaurant where we ordered chicken/prawn paper rolls and other food as well.
One has left his Tofu/jasmine rice in the middle saying he feels ulti coming.
Then the other one left his chicken curry half, another one left 10% of his plate;
Another of the group left the paper roll half eating
Now its my chance, though I've completed my grilled chicken rice and coconut juice, I couldn't eat the paper roll, i've completed one full with difficulty but left the 1 piece.


Counter value: 3
Time: a couple of hours ago on 7th may, 2011.
place: Tandoori times, 194, barkley street, st. kilda road, melbourne, Australia
we went four, not left much but the guy who always wastes food left the food today as well.
My ex-manager left a little bit on this plate.
My roommie completed full
And I've left 2-3 spoons of steam rice in the bowl, though it doesn't come under my count but I've ordered the steam rice.
Food was pathetic, to all Indians out there please don't go here: the rates as pretty low so the food quality.
Tandoori prawns were n't like prawns.
punjabi dhal thadka was good.
Chilli bowl was too spicy, it has red chilli beans sprinkled on it.
this place doesn't need a review, its thumbs down.

Counter value: 4

Time: y'day afternoon, around 1-2PM, i.e. 14th may 2011

place: Tandoori curry bar, opp. Ohm, elizabeth street, melbourne, Australia

We all(me, new roommie and my ex-manager) ordered veg combos.

I've completed my plate full, not wasting anything.

My new roommie who always wastes food did this time as well, on top of the combo he took additional rotis, he ate rotis but wasted 40% of the rice on his plate; the wasted items include some daal and curry.

My ex manager wasted a little bit of curry and dal, can say 10-15%.


Counter value:5
Time: Friday night around 8 PM, RM hotel on elizabeth street, on 20th may 2011
My roommie as usual finished his food as well as I.
The one who always wastes food wasted this time, around 10-15%.
My ex manager wasted around 10-15% of the curry.
To specify it the food was one of the worst of its kind, its a strict no go to this place.


Counter vaue: 6
Time: 1 PM, Noodle Kingdom, Russell street, melbourne, AUS
the place is a disgusting one, no one cares what you want, the waittresses don't understand english, god saves the english speaking people who goes to this place. Though most of the people are chinese so it doesn't make much difference to their business.
So obviously I can't discuss with the waittress as she doesn't understand a thing.
so I ordered Mutton stews with Rice, hot&sour soup and my roommite ordered veg hot and sour noodles.
We had to beg and request for water, spoon and forks and finally we had everything to eat. But look at the mutton, its mostly mutton fat and bones, there's nothing left to eat for me, i struggled to seperate fat and the actual mutton but vexed and just left it after eating a couple of pieces with white rice and some greens. The hot,sour soup was ok kind though I found the taste a bit odd.
so I almost left the mutton pieces but completed most of the white rice, i left 1/8 of the soup though. My roommie who always wastes is no exception this time though credit goes to him to complete most of his ordered food. The item he ordered was brought in a huge bowl which actually seemed to be for 2 people. Thanks to his appetite he was able to complete 3/4th of his food.
That's it, thumbs down for this restaurant and never again try a chinese restaurant with cheap rates :)


Counter value 8(7+1) 
 Date: 11th June, '11, venue : room no. 1310, unilodge, i.e. my room
I have wasted dish full of Red lentils curry, so bad on my part always boasting of being an activitist etc etc. 
No sorry with this act I now fail to be called an activist :( 
Pity, how could I just leave the curry to detiorate, i prepared the curry on sat afternoon a bit more assuming my roommies would share the dish but that didn't happen even on sunday as well and I fail to refrigerate it.
By monday morning the curry was with white foam and pungent foul smell. It feels bad to throw away something we all relish to eat. I am so so sorry.
Despite my above experience I prepared yellow lentils curry on the same day which I refrigerated properly and ate for two days(suffered bloating due to this :)) but finally couldn't do and had to throw away a little(not much but one lunch plate serving), another mistake.
With two back to back mistakes the counter now stands at 8.